I'm sorry... :(

That day, I chatted with him. I'm so sorry I didn't realized it. What kind of person am I? He sounded so sad that day. I'm so, so sorry. If I've paid more attention that day, I would've noticed it. I don't know what to do now...All I can do is only praying. Hoping that things will get better for him. If only I have noticed it, he'll probably tell me about it and then I'll be able to comfort him. Now I can't even find him. What am I to do? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Darn it!!!!! Nothing is worth more than making him happy...I'm losing my loved ones one by one. I don't want to lose him too. I've already lost %%% and then %%%. Now I don't want to lose %%% which is my childhood friend, my best friend, and the person that shared the same blood with me. I'm so selfish. Why do I keep losing things??? Especially the ones that I treasured the most. The ones that I would sacrifice myself for. The ones that always wipe away my tears and be there for me to share my misery, my happiness and my anger. *sigh*

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I remembered the first time I enter his office. The happy smile that plastered on his face because he's finally able to own something on his own. He was very happy and proud of himself. I can never forget that smile. But within a few seconds, a decision, it can destroy your life forever. The power of one decision can change your life forever. If it's a good thing, it's okay to make that decision. But what if it's a bad one? Will you be able to reverse it? Will you be able to turn back the clock and correct your mistake?

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The moment he was born, I found myself sharing most of my days with. We have lots of things in common. He is one of the greatest things in my life. I'm wondering...will she be able to smile again? The questions is...do you think we are going to be together and close again? Even though we are separated thousands of kilometers away?

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That's my life...I'm born to witness myself losing all the important things. One by one slipping away...It's never easy to get them back. Sometimes, almost impossible.

Life after exam...

I just finished my first test today. I think I'm gonna score badly for my Maths and Physics. I don't have the confidence to say I'll score A for both the subjects. I've been trying to maintain my Maths score to be 90% and above. I've been doing well except for once or twice when I got 88%. Hmmm...I wonder how will it be...Today we got back our Sejarah paper. But the teacher ask us to give it back coz there's a correction. Wong Boon Chun didn't get a very good mark. He went to Pn. Atiah to complain. He ended up coming back adding 13 marks! How incredible is that? He should be a lawyer since he is fluent in Malay both orally and writing. He ask the teacher about some 'kandungan' thingy as he wasn't satisfied why couldn't he get the correct answer. So he question teacher, [in Malay] "If the bottle is filled with sugar, do you say the content is sugar or diabetes?" Yea... it was something like that. He SHOULD become a lawyer. lol who am I to ask him wad to become?

Anyway...*silence* oh...I got some cds from Shelly. It's Yamada Taro Monogatari, Liar Game[I'm watching it again] and The Quiz Show 2. Sho is always amazing...He can be quit evil just with his eyes...It's scary. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....I don't know what to say anymore...I thought I have lots of things to write here but I end up squeezing my head for stuff to write about. Oh ya, I think I made up my mind. I'm gonna put November's Tears online with my LiveJournal account. Maybe I'll just print a copy for myself. LOL or anyone that wants it... Ashley is still pr-ing it. So it might take some time before I post it onl9. The cover, I'm still asking Shelly to do it even though I'm not publishing it. But I just want it as a memory. I like the story...I don't know why. It's not because I'm the one that wrote it but the story...arghhhhhhhhh I don't know.

I'm working on my next story. It's a fanfic. I'll also post that story on my LJ account. It's either called a 'A Love That Never Was' or 'A Love That May Have Happened' depending on the ending. It's about how this girl had a car accident in Japan. That person who knocked her happens to be a very famous celeb in Japan. She lost her memory due to losing too much blood. The celeb have to take care of her and bring her in to live with him and another 5 of his group's members. Yea...something like that. That's all for now...Bye :)