I'm sorry... :(

That day, I chatted with him. I'm so sorry I didn't realized it. What kind of person am I? He sounded so sad that day. I'm so, so sorry. If I've paid more attention that day, I would've noticed it. I don't know what to do now...All I can do is only praying. Hoping that things will get better for him. If only I have noticed it, he'll probably tell me about it and then I'll be able to comfort him. Now I can't even find him. What am I to do? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Darn it!!!!! Nothing is worth more than making him happy...I'm losing my loved ones one by one. I don't want to lose him too. I've already lost %%% and then %%%. Now I don't want to lose %%% which is my childhood friend, my best friend, and the person that shared the same blood with me. I'm so selfish. Why do I keep losing things??? Especially the ones that I treasured the most. The ones that I would sacrifice myself for. The ones that always wipe away my tears and be there for me to share my misery, my happiness and my anger. *sigh*

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I remembered the first time I enter his office. The happy smile that plastered on his face because he's finally able to own something on his own. He was very happy and proud of himself. I can never forget that smile. But within a few seconds, a decision, it can destroy your life forever. The power of one decision can change your life forever. If it's a good thing, it's okay to make that decision. But what if it's a bad one? Will you be able to reverse it? Will you be able to turn back the clock and correct your mistake?

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The moment he was born, I found myself sharing most of my days with. We have lots of things in common. He is one of the greatest things in my life. I'm wondering...will she be able to smile again? The questions is...do you think we are going to be together and close again? Even though we are separated thousands of kilometers away?

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That's my life...I'm born to witness myself losing all the important things. One by one slipping away...It's never easy to get them back. Sometimes, almost impossible.