I'm traumatised

Dear friends, sorry to trouble you but this is for me and your own good. On Saturday the January 24th, there was a snatch theft incident happening in my housing area. Unfortunately the victim is me. The snatch thefts were sitting on two motorcycles. They were coming down the hill and I was climbing up with my mother. It happened at Jalan Lemak, about 10 at night. I felt something amiss when the motorcycles appear. Still, I didn't manage to do anything. One of the man jumped down from the motorcycle and pointed me with an electrical stuff at my stomach. I don't what's that called. It shows a green light. The man was wearing a green helmet and about few inches taller than me(probably 165cm-170cm). Luckily, my mother quickly pulled me away but the man managed to take away my sling bag. It's quite small and white in colour. My mother said that the string of the sling bag was torn even though I didn't feel any thing like being forcefully jerked forward. It's seems like I'm too panic to notice anything.

My bag contains my house key, earphone and hand phone. I screamed a lot of times. Not to mention very loud too. In the effect of the screaming, most of the residents came out of their house. The snatch thefts are too fast. Nobody can identify them. Not even their registration number. So, please, if anyone called you and ask for my personal details, please, I'm begging you, don't tell. Now, I only left my mother, my sister and my brother. I don't want anything to happen to them. I've already lost my father, who is the closest to me. I don't want to lose anyone again. I'm begging you. Don't tell even though they're threatened you. I'm not being selfish or anything because if you tell, the risk of my mother's tuition student of being kidnapped is also high. So, here, I'm begging you to help me.

My advice: Don't walk on the streets at night even though you're house or the place you're going is near. You can die from this incident. Don't be penny wise, pound foolish. Promise me, you don't wanna try that.

The 3rd Day After I Saw Those Words...

I think, today will be the last day I'm going to write about this. Because I think, I'm finally getting over it. But, still sometimes I would think about him. They said that 'loving another person will heal your wound'. Is that true?
Wouldn't it lead to another wound? I don't think I'm going to fall in love again. Sometimes I've been wondering is it a must for someone to get hurt first before getting someone they really love?
Is that it?
I guess my friends' words are true. It's not worth it crying for David. My tears are not worth it. Hmm...when will I ever learn the true meaning of love?

LOVE: An undefined word. You have to experience it in order to know the true meaning behind this word. No dictionaries can ever describe this word as much as your feelings does.

It's over.

Written on 28-12-2008

The 2nd Day After I Saw Those Words...

Nothing unusual happened today. It's just that I suddenly thought of David and Jay. I wonder what leads me to this thought. It's so sudden.
The Jay part is when papa, mummy and I went to buy toiletries at a shop. There are two teenage guys that came into the shop later to help. Are they related to the owner of the shop? The guy that looks like Jay is wrapping the mirror with newspapers so that it will not break easily. Let's call the guy that looks like Jay, Jay guy. Jay guy is wearing a Baby Milo hooded jacket. It looks like Baby Milo but I'm not sure whether it is or not. The jacket is white with black Baby Milos.
I forgotten what is his friend wearing as I don't know Jay that time. We bought the toiletries at late 2006 and I know David and his friends in early 2007.
The David part is about the dream. I'm not going to tell what is it. Nobody knows about the dream except me, of course! What does 'a circle' means when I ask about someones' relationship? Hmm...
Why did I think of him?

Written on 27-12-2008

The 1st Day After I saw Those Words

Today, is the first day after I saw those words. I wonder how many days I'm still going to write. But, I'm sure that if I'm still missing David, then I'll continue writing.
I cried again when I was playing 'Rivers Flows in You' and also this morning. Tears just flow automatically without any reason. Sometimes, I wonder can we actually control our tears? Is there any reasonable reason why he would hurt me with those words?I told Verinia over and over again that those words doesn't seem to belong to David. I'm shocked when he can say those hurtful words.
I'm wrong in everything. I can't seem to judge a person and my instincts are alays wrong. Ysabelle is right about David. David sucks! That's what she told me but I was reluctant to listen to her. I guess now my stuborness is leading me to pain again. I thought David is different from the others. During those times when I chatted with him, he is so nice and caring. Is this really who he is? If it is, what made him changed? Do I really know the real David?
I'm so confused and I don't know what to do. Are we really meant to be this way forever? Does our friendship has to end in this nasty way?

Written on 26-12-2008