Happy Birthday, my special someone...

Today,is a memorial day...It used to be a very happy day but it's no longer one. This person brought light into my world again after everyone left me. My loved ones left me one by one. But this very special person brought back light into my world. Previously, my world is full with darkness and sadness. Everything around me is pitch black. Then, I saw a white light, reaching to me. The light is bringing me to a place that is so beautiful that no one can describe. But then, the colours are fading away again. Leaving me in the same pitched black world. Why did that person left me? I wonder. All I could do is to wait for the light to appear again. I waited again, again and again. I still couldn't see anything.

My patience is rewarded. I saw that person again. My world is not dark anymore. But it is filled with a different and uncomfortable colour. Why can't I used to see the colour that I saw last time? Did he change? Why did he change? Then, I decided to not follow the light anymore. I walked away from the light and I hope that I don't see the light again. But is that possible?

Even though I stopped searching for that light, but I here, I wanna thank you for everything. Happy Birthday...

Me. Me Love. Me ex-online boyfriend.

LOL what's with the title??? I'm posting for the second time today...Coz I wanna separate the stuff bout me bro and him, my very first online boyfriend. *sigh* I miss him...after we broke up, we lost contact of each other. The reason we broke up was because...(lets' not go into that topic) we didn't even lastt a week...so sad...but during those days were fun. I liked him once...why am I talking about him??? his humour, his jokes <<

My Bro came back AGAIN

LOL my brother came home yesterday...So happy :)
He asked me to get ready the oven so that he can iron his clothes tomorrow morning...what the heck...
he said if I don't do that he can't go to work...LOL anyway I'm happy that he is back.

Welcome home, おにいちゃん。

I MISS HIM!!!

Okay...the truth is I still miss him!!! This time, I'm talking about another guy...I met him in the year of 2007...I think some of my friends will who is he is...But if you do, please don't tell out. :D
I miss him and his friends. I talked about him when I'm having my ride home yesterday and today with my girlfriend. Why is there still memories of him in my memory??? Don't they have en eraser specially for these kind of stuffs??? *sigh*
I want to chat with you again...I miss you a lot...hell damn lot...*sigh* *sigh* *sigh* Do you know I'm talking about you right now? Do you know that I miss you right now??? I hope I wouldn't fall in love with you again...
This is what happen when you talk about Lamborghini...Why does his friend had to have a Lamborghini in his house? WHY???!!! Of all people it had to be his BEST FRIEND. *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

I miss you...

My Past and with a Guy

My past with a guy...Hmmm...I wanna talk about this in my blog. Today I read something that reminds me of my past [F.Y.I. it's not my diary]. This thing reminds me of 'him'. All the memories came into my mind like a place that is flooded with water. I wonder why? Do I still like him? Or I miss him too much that it still lies deep down in my heart no matter how much I tried to forget?

*sigh* Memories...some memories can be great but some...can be very sad. Till now, I regretted for doing that. The guiltiness and pain I felt is like trying to breath in water. I'm sorry. I'm really very sorry. What can I do to make this pain go away???

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Another topic...I'm watching Goong S now and I saw this very handsome guy!!! OMG he is so good-looking. His character is Alexander van Estauher...I think that's his name if I'm not mistaken. OMG OMG OMG OMG I've never seen such charming and good-looking guy like him before!!

:D :D :D :D

haha ^^

My sister...

LOL me sister has just came home from Kuala Selangor...More like she came home first before i did. My doggie, Johnny is hurt...or maybe you can call that sick. He got some skin problems. The vet said it's because the weather is getting hotter and hotter and some dogs can't stand it. Pity Johnny. He had to wear this 'thingy' to keep him from scratching. He quite cute in a way...LOL

My sister laughed when she heard what I said about him...She's not suppose to laugh ya noe...

Me + the evil minion Johnny + sister...LOL what the hell am I talking about? I just finish reading a novel, 'Remember Me?' by Sophie Kinsella. It's a nice novel even though there's a lot of 'f' word and also some dirty parts...I've read a book title 'Can You Keep A Secret?' written by her too! It's also another wonderful story.

*sigh* ... I have exam next week....Dunno what to do....*sigh*
Today, I suddenly thought of him. I dunno why...I think somewhere deep down in my heart, I still miss him and think of him...It took me quite long to forget about him and this little bit of thing can remind me all of those stuff again...I can't let my friends to know about this, if not they will start asking again and again about him. They prefer me forgetting him than dating/liking him. LOL They said he was a jerk...

I should not mention any of this...Gosh! This whole thing is coming back...

Me Brotherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............

My brother went back to Penang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sniff* *sniff* uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

*cries a lot* I didn't even get to say goodbye...I miss you, koko!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay...I sent my story to a publishing company about two days ago...Hmm I wonder if they will accept it. Who knows??? Will it be successful??? Who knows...

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